…:: a i N a S h a ::…

hurm…jumaat lepas, tok din meninggal..
sempat ziarah tokDin masa kat CCU Selayang..
tp tak boleh msk pun..
byk complication katanya..
meninggal dalam tidur..
smg Allah tempatkan roh TokDin dikalangan hamba2NYA yg Soleh..

erm…meninggalkan dunia..
bila agaknya turn kita ye..
Ya Allah..ampunkan dosa2ku..

teringat kat pengalaman2 lalu..

Scene 1:

"Allahyarhamah Mawar Hasni Jasimin"
Mawar..akak baru nak call Mawar malam tu..

Mawar kata nak belajar buat database dgn akak..
akak kata ok..tp nnti ms cuti..sbb time tu akak tgh peksa.."
Mawar kata"OK,akak bgtau eh bila akak nak balik jhr.. nanti Mawar amik akak.."
exam dah habis…balik johor..
"Nak ctc Mawar la mlm ni..sian dia..nak blaja dbase..tp kejap lagilaa.."
tiba2..hphone bunyi..
"a’kum kakyus..dijah ni..
wsalam..nape Dijah?..Dijah sihat?..
"erm..sihat.Akak, kita nak bgtau ni.."
"apedia Dijah?"..
"akak..Mawar dah takde?"
"dia pergi mana?.."
"akak..Mawar dah meninggal dunia.."
"……<speechless>…….."
"akak?…kakyus?..akak dengar tak?.."
"dijah!betul ke ni?..dia sakit apa?.."
"sakit lama dia..ntahla kak sy pun kurg faham"
"innalillahiwainnailaihiroji’un..kenapa akak tak tau dia sakit?…takde org bgtau pun?.."
"erm..akak..Alfatihah utk dia ye.."
"OK..thanks Dijah.."
esok pg2..8.00am..pergi melawat dgn Farah..
Mawar..kita tak sempat nak buat dbase ‘tu’ sesama..
Apa2pun…semangat wajamu masih bersama kami…
semoga rohmu dilimpahi rahmatNYA..

Scene 2 :

"Allahyarham Mohd. Affaizal Sabihan"

Apai..Ayus baru nak bgtau..handset Ayus hilang..

Masa tu baru balik dr Mersing..
ade "keje" sikit on 21 Mac 2004..
hset tertinggal dlm bas ms gi mersing..
ms dah balik umah..
call nombor2 yg ingat nak inform hset hilang..
ms call Apai..
"assalamualaikum..
waalaikumussalam..
"ni adik ye?"..sbb adik perempuan dia yg jwb..
"boleh akak cakap dgn abg affaizal?"..
"erm..akak…errr…akak tak tau ke?.."
"kenapa dik?"..
"abang dah takde.."
"innalillah..bila dik?"
"dua hari lepas.."
"Ya Allah..mesti org tak dpt bgtau,sbb hset akak baru hilang.."
"akak call ni pun sbb nak bgtau jgn call no hset tu.."
"takziah ye dik..kirim slm akak kat mak suma ye..
..Allah lebih sayangkan dia..sabar ye dik.."
"ok.kak..terima kasih.."
APai=classmate masa degree IT
6 mnths lps masuk uitm..hospitalized
->detected lung cancer(he is not a smoker)
->operation done at IJN sbb tumor tu t’lalu besar hingga menolak jantung..
->kuar hosp..ok sket..
->kanser merebak hingga ke tulang belakang-Apai lumpuh separuh badan..
->buat class visit ke rumah Apai kat Pilah,N9
->he is bedridden until he left this world forever..

what a coincidence..

baru nak call..tiba2 dpt berita sedih..

whatever..Allah lebih sayangkan mereka..

yg pergi tetap pergi..

yg hidup ni..perlu sentiasa mengingati MATI…

"cukuplah MATI sebagai peringatan buat kita semua…"

…together we unite for Allah n Islam..

Who seeks joy in paradise
Will unite within for you and me
Evils harms anyone that stands far away
From our love
Be careful my brother deceit of your foe
Build up your faith
Get the pleasure for the present and future

The world has shown and the history has proven
Everything is true then it wins the barriers
So let us together build it again
The powers of faithful
The powers of mind

(Unity - Amar in Kiasan Naluri)

Allahuakbar!!

smlm ms goreng ikan keli yg meletup-letup..tingat kat mak kat umahh..yela kann..kalau goreng benda2 yg agak ‘merbahaya’…mak akan cakap…"tepi..tepi..nanti terkena"..erm..abistu mak tu tak kena ke nanti..erm..itulah seseorang yg bergelar emak..walau macamana susah pun takpe..janji anak2 ok..isk..sedih la pulak den..sob..sob…

mlm td tido awal..tak berapa sihat…pepagi bgn..tak perasan ada msg..oo Farah rupenya..napela adik aku sowang ni.."kakyus,nnti teponla ma, ma cakap2 psl ko…dia kata da lame xdgr suara ko..baik ko tepon mlm ni or esok.."…erk..terasa bersalahnye aku..sian Ma..patutla mlm td teringat2 dia..jap…aku rasa br je tepon aritu..whatever..I have to ring her by today..thanks Farah for reminding me..

"ada tidak dihargai hinggalah ia tiada"..(meng’edit’ kata2 ujai)..actually tgh dgr lagu "KAU SAHABAT KAU TEMAN"..sebaknya…teringat kat Arwah Ayah..erm…kawan2 yg Ayus sayang..berbakti n hargailah mak n ayah kita selagi mereka masih ade..taatilah keduanya sebaik mungkin…buatlah perkara yang dapat membuatkan mereka gembira…Ayus terasa sangat masa ayah meninggal..terasa banyak lagi benda yg kita nak cakap kat ayah…banyak lagi benda yang kita nak buat ayah happy…banyak lagi benda kita nak tolong ayah…banyak lagi benda yg boleh balas jasa ayah..dan yang paling penting…tak puas nak manja ngan ayahhh…mak kata ayah memang manjakan anak2 pempuan..ayah tak pernah marah kitorg kan Farah…kalau ayah tak suka ape yg kitorg buat..ayah cakap kat mak…suruh mak tegur…baik kan ayah…AYAH…ayus rindu sangat kat ayah…ayah tak sempat nak pegi masa ayus konvo diploma..ayah tak dapat nak dtg masa ayus konvo degree..kan best kalau ayah ada…isk..terasa ada sesuatu mengalir di pipi..Ya Allah..tempatkanlah ayah di kalangan hamba2Mu yg beriman..cucurilah rahmat ke atas roh ayah…Al-Fatihah untuk ayahanda Shariff bin Bani…Aminnn..

erm…this is the first time i wrote for this blog..before this..hehe..just copy paste maa..actually, i felt like wanna write all the things that came accross my mind..every day..but then..too much..really…too much to write..moreover..i’m not that good in writing….

what to write huh..??//

ha..yesterday..went to a hi-tea talk by Br. ShahKirit on Islam…a backward religion?..sounds terrible rite?..but I do enjoy it..a very informative talk..that really motivate me..lately,i went down motivated as a dai’e..no support..got to stand by my own feet..anyway kak izzah pay for me to enter the hitea..haha..thanks akak..rm100/person?….with my status : unemployed..I,myself?can’t afford laa..thanks again kak..for such a beneficial hitea..

erm..kak izzah..a nice lady..she got the strength to be a good muslimah..as she is a muallaf actually.ok.the first time i met her was ..one evening in 2001, "knock..knock…knock"..somebody’s coming..when i opened the door.."errr..before this I saw the advertisement that this house is on rental, so can I…bla…bla.."…as I am alone at that time, got no housemates to discuss with..I just said that the house is full..(moreover she is non-muslim)..then she asked me, "u tengah buat ape?"..bcoz she saw me with my telekung..I said that I’m reading the qur’an..then she said.."oo i see..bcoz now is already 3.15pm..takkan la u br nak sembahyang..dah nak masuk asar"..erk..actually, before reading the qur’an i just finish up my zuhur prayer…just smiling..but wondering that she knew about all the prayer’s time…???..then I asked her to come in..gotta quite long conversation..including the why, the do’s and dont’s in Islam that she really curious with..then, changing phone numbers…end..

after that incident, we always keep contact..she did come over to my house in sec.9 on hari raya open house…but then she said that she is practising fasting..oh..what a good progress..when she came another day…we wore tudung..then she asked why..I said that we have to cover in front of non-muslims.. she asked why…bla..bla…erm..’bout two weeks after that..she asked me to go out with her..oh..she want to told me that..she is now a muslim.."I dah mengucap depan kawan I and his friend"…the ‘kawan’ is the person who she always keep arguing with before(argue ’bout Islam)…he asked her to find a muslim girl to be friend so, easier to ask 4 more ..hehe..finally she found me..alhamdulillah..although she hasn’t declared it officially..she is now a muslim..a muslimahh.."erm, bila u nak buat secara rasmi..i mean tukar IC n everything?"…she is quite afraid  as she is one of the group leader in church..she said that if they know..there will be a world war III in my family..the only person that knew ’bout this are u n the other 2..so keep it secret.."….every sunday her mom will rang her to remind for going to the church..as b4 that she lives with her mom..this is the first time she stand by her own feet…(one of the reason is to avoid eating at mom’s home)…

during one semester break, she followed me to my hometown..johor..gotta kenduri doa selamat for my parents b4 go for Hajj..n my mom decided to include the doa selamat for her of being a muslim..I helped her to wear tudung..her first time..she is very happy as she can’t do that in shah alam..i told her later on..whatever it is..u have to cover as u are a muslim..step by step k..my mom taught her how to pray..she started praying..after went back to shah alam..she always come to my house to learn qur’an..bacaan2 in prayers n everything…during working days, she go to petronas station nearby for zuhur prayer…until she found a small store in her office that can be use to pray without others notice…really proud of her that she hardly find a way to make sure she folows Islam’s rules obidiently..I am wondering of some muslims now that doesn’t care much ’bout prayer..

day..by day…it’s early 2005..it has been quite a long time not seeing her..just communicating thru phone…one Sunday..she asked me to accompany her to her friend’s kenduri.." ok..i’ll wait here…bla..bla..bla.."…when her honda accord parked in front of me.."akak!!!"..I screamed suprisingly as seeing her covered properly with tudung…"I hugged her…"bila akak start pakai tudung ni?..tak cakap punn".."in this just 2 weeks.."..she said she have to because that is Allah’s rules..she had a grushing with her mom…but she said.."tak apelah..sikit2..lama2 pun dia kena tau jugak kann.."…alhamdulillah..she dare to take the risk instead of being disobedient to Allah.."takpe kak..Allah Maha Mengetahui..DIA mesti tolong akak punya..k"..

and…until yesterday…she called that she finally got the seat for the hitea…(earlier,she cancelled the planned)..so,I was rushing that i just put my hand-sock in my handbag…I arrived at ’bout 4pm.."huh, I thought u’ll be arrived at 5, the program end at 6.15"…"ooo…so hurry haa..til u forget to wear the handsock"…erkk..just smiling n wear it with my hand under the table…hmmm..

oklaa…that is all ’bout her…till then..

Jika engkau ingin mengikut para imam (pejuang dan pemimpin berlandaskan Islam)…

maka…kuatkanlah dirimu dalam menerima musibah

dengan..jiwa yg tabah di waktu menghadapi tiap-tiap kepahitan dan dengan hati yang sabar

walaupun…dadamu bergoncang, lisanmu dikunci, matamu dikendalikan, rahsiamu disembunyikan untuk hanya diketahui oleh Tuhanmu sahaja…

Namamu biar tidak terkenal, pintu rumahmu tertutup, mulutmu tersenyum, parutmu lapar, hatimu luka, pasarmu tiada sambutan, pangkatmu dipendam dan keaibanmu ditonjolkan..

Saban harimu menelan kepahitan daripada pengaruh zaman dan teman…sedangkan hatimu menurut dalam kesedaran…

Siangmu sibuk mengislahkan manusia tanpa berkira-kira…malammu tenggelam dalam keasyikan pada Tuhan…

Ambillah kesempatan pada malam hari, jadikan ia jalan dan persiapan untuk hari kiamat yang padanya sulit sekali untuk mencari jalan…

[ I m a m  A l -  G h a z a l i ]

Jangan, jangan dan jangan
Jangan sengaja lewatkan solat.
Perbuatan ini Allah tidak suka.
Kalau tertidur lain cerita.

Jangan masuk ke bilik air tanpa memakai alas
kaki (selipar).
Takut kalau-kalau terbawa keluar najis,
mengotori seluruh rumah kita.

Jangan makan dan minum dalam
bekas yang pecah atau sumbing.
Makruh kerana ia membahayakan.

Jangan biarkan pinggan mangkuk yang telah
digunakan tidak berbasuh.
Makruh dan mewarisi kepapaan.

Jangan tidur selepas solat Subuh, nanti
rezeki mahal
(kerana berpagi-pagi itu membuka pintu
berkat).

Jangan makan tanpa membaca BISMILLAH dan doa makan .
Nanti rezeki kita dikongsi syaitan.

Jangan keluar rumah
tanpa niat untuk membuat kebaikan.
Takut-takut kita mati dalam
perjalanan.

Jangan pakai sepatu atau selipar yang
berlainan pasangan.
Makruh dan mewarisi kepapaan.

Jangan biarkan mata liar di perjalanan.
Nanti hati kita gelap
diselaputi dosa.

Jangan menangguh taubat bila berbuat
dosa kerana mati boleh datang
bila-bila masa.

Jangan ego untuk meminta maaf pada
ibu bapa dan sesama manusia
kalau memang kita bersalah.

Jangan mengumpat sesama rakan
taulan. Nanti rosak persahabatan kita
hilang bahagia.

Jangan lupa bergantung kepada ALLAH
dalam setiap kerja kita. Nanti
kita sombong apabila berjaya.
Kalau gagal kecewa pula.

Jangan bakhil untuk bersedekah.
Sedekah itu memanjangkan umur
dan memurahkan rezeki kita.

Jangan banyak ketawa. Nanti mati jiwa.

Jangan biasakan berbohong, kerana ia adalah
ciri-ciri munafik dan
menghilangkan kasih orang kepada kita.

Jangan suka menganiaya manusia atau haiwan. Doa
makhluk yang teraniaya
cepat dimakbulkan ALLAH.

Jangan terlalu susah hati dengan urusan dunia.
Akhirat itu lebih utama
dan hidup di sana lebih lama dan kekal selamanya.

Jangan mempertikaikan kenapa ISLAM itu berkata JANGAN.
Sebab semuanya untuk keselamatan kita.

ALLAH lebih tahu apa yang terbaik
untuk hamba ciptaanNya.